Still hiding my feelings=]

I'm goin' crazy. That's how I describe my emotions right now. It's been a while when I started to hide what I feel and not to tell the persons concerned about it. It's so hard to pretend every now and then. But I'm trying to keep it myself to avoid malicious intrigues and stuffies. I do really care about HIM. I just don't say it. I also am thinking of the con 's if I am gonna share it with somebody else. And I don't have the assurance if that person will keep it by him/herself. So I just finally decided not to have it publicly announced. It's so HARD! Indeed it is. My feeling is so WEIRD and DEGRADING. Hihi. But this is really is it!